Passion of Problem

 

It has been 10 months since I started my career in Malaysia, my home country. I have been answering the question “What makes you leave Australia and come back?” for 10 months too. For the very first month, I answered in great detail from the family, career, friends and relationship perspectives. After 6 months my answer is now “I felt in love with Malaysia”. Is it true that I love Malaysia that much or simply just to avoid further queries from these people? I have doubts about my love and my passion for Malaysia too.

 

Where did my passion for Malaysia go?

 

My passion has drained down the road. The road called Lebuhraya Damansara Puchong, LDP, where I drive daily at approximately 5-10km/hr for 3kms.

My passion has been burnt out while I was burning the mid-night oil from 12am to 5am just to plan how to spend 84 millions for other people. Worrying other’s people money is my job. Good thing is I don’t have much worry about my own money because I don’t have much.

 

All of a sudden not only my passion has gone but the positive passionate Carrie has gone too. I lost her because I am busy chasing after my daily routine, chores, deadlines and problem to solve. Problem flares around searching solution to bliss.

 

How to solve problem? I spoke to my dearest GoGo. He quoted this, “Problem is solve if you know when you are dying”. He has his point and he elaborated further with example.

 

Eg: Imagine the following scenario:

 

(PROBLEM)

 Should I but this LV bag or not? Is $3000. But I really like it?...

(SOLUTION)

You are dying in 3 days time

(PROBLEM SOLVED)

Please give me a black, white and blue one.

 

He has not helped me to solve the problem but cheer me up. So my only problem now is that I do not know when I’m dying.  I realized that he is trying to tell me that, life is not a problem but living it is. Therefore either you live with it or you don’t live. . Don’t get me wrong, I’m not encouraging suicide. Life goes on as well as problem. I don’t have to solve each single problem but live with it. Enjoy life, enjoy problems.

 

Conclusion, I still love Malaysia. My passion is still here. I just need to learn to live. Live and be passionate with problem.

 

~Carrie on Monday Blue~

3th February 2008, Weather Fine

 

I woke up 8 am this morning. I cleaned up my room. I moved my all the luggages to the rumpus including, a 25kgs suitcase, 15kgs bag, 7 kgs hand carry, 4 kgs handbag and waistband. Thanks to AirAsia that I was able to purchase the maximum baggage allowances. However, I have to travel from Sunshine Coast to Gold Coast Airport. How far is it? Mmmm...1.5 hours to Brisbane and another 1.5 hours to Coolongatta, Gold Coast. That was by driving.

 

My first intention was to catch public transport. The journey begin from calling a cab from Nambour to the train Station. Then from Nambour Station to Brisbane Central, from Brisbane to Robina and from Robina to Coolongatta. This first proposal was gonna take me approximately 7.5 hours. It was gonna be difficult to carry approximately 55kgs to the airport using the public transport. Thanks to my dearest friend Eelee who put the effort to borrow a car to pick my up. Her journey was not any shorter. She drove from Brisbane to Sunshine Coast, Sunshince Coast back to Brisbane, Brisbane to Coolangatta and then back to Brisbane.   

 

I cleaned my whole house. This house that I was staying was a home of my closest friends in Sunshine Coast. The whole family were away for summer vacation. I was house sitting for them. They handover their keys to me. As I was cleaning and packing, Ee Lee and Ming came approximately 2pm. I did my final check. I ticked of my to do list. RETURN KEY was one of them. I left the key on the benchtop in the kitchen. 

 

All of a sudden, I realised I have no key. Where were all my keys?

Car keys? I sold of my car

Office keys? I quited my job

Church keys? I have returned it

House keys? Is not my house anymore

 

All these keys used to make up approximately half to one kgs in my handbag.

 

Ming and Ee Lee helped me to arrange the luggages into the car's boot. I was a moving expert. I could arrange luggages into car very well. WHY? I moved approximately 10 times in 5 years. We were about to leave approximately 3pm. "Wait a minute! I couldn't lock the door without the key". So I locked Ming and Ee Lee outside and myself in the house. There were two options, either I get out from the garage or laundry. Garage...It is a quit dangerous stunt to perform. I need to roll out the driveway before the roller shutter shut. "No way, I am no Jacky Chan. I can do no stunt". The laundry, was a better idea. I went out through the laundry. I shut the door. No turning back. If I left something inside, I probably have to break in.

 

We started our journey. Ee Lee stopped by Brisbane of a refreshement. I took a last glance at Brisbane...I couldn't believe that I was really leaving. After the refreshment, we picked up Shim and head off to the airport. We arrived the airport approximately 7 pm. As my luggage was a bit over weight, I wore all the clothes I could. So my luggage was not over weight but I was. I wore a pair of sunglasses and cap in a indoor building at 7pm. I wore a jacket while it was approximately 28 degrees. I have my bibli on my left pocket and calculator on my right pocket. I have a waistband under my clothes where I put my cash and another waist band outside my clothes where I but my passport. If I were to go on the bathroom scale, I guess I have put on approximately 5 kgs. No kidding. The weirdest gal among us, Shim said," First time I saw someone more weird than me". EeLee said,"you look like a spy or a terrorist". I said my last goodbye and head off to the plane. Once, I passed the security check, I took off all the 5kgs of unnecessary items from me. It was not like I would read my bible on the plane or do Maths calculation with my calculator. 

 

After 8 hours, I arrived at Kuala Lumpur approximately 5am KL time. I called a cab. Guess how long was the journey LCCT airport to Melawati? 45 minutes!!! only 45 minutes!!! The cab driver drove approximately 130km/hr at 110km/hr zone. He also drove approximately 130km/hr at 90, 80, 60 zone. I wanted to tell him that I was not in a hurry. First lesson in Malaysia. The limit zone signs are for decoration only. No effect at all unless there is road block.  

 

I arrived home around 6:30am. My mum and dad came to welcome me. I saw the keys hang on the shoe shelves. I knew why I felt unsecured without key. The 24 hours journey without key was not only a journey without key but also without security because I was without home. I am glad that I am back home now! 

 

 

REal StorY

Carrie

 

 

 

 

I have forgotten the feeling of last day of work. Maybe I didn't really have a pre-know last day at work before. Emm.. let me think....

 

I came to Australia in July 2002. First job, factory worker in August 2002. Worked for two weeks. The manager asked me to stop coming until they have more work. She said she would call me. Obviously she didn't called back. So, I didn't know it was the last day.

 

Second, partime QS. I quited my job right before the 2004 Christmas holiday. The director asked me, "when do I want to leave?" I said, "anytime that is convenient to the company." I have finished everything before the Christmas holiday and the most convenient time will be that day itself. So, I didn't really have the last day.

 

Third, waitress. I finished my shift on Sunday. I went home and called the manager and told her my intention to leave. So she said, "let today be the last." Again, I didn't know it was the last day.

 

Fourth, Building Cadet in March 2005. The HR manager rang me on Thursday afternoon, "Carrie, we have to terminate your contract tomorrow". I wasn't awake till Friday. No one know it was my last day because hardly anyone know me.

 

Today, was my last day in Riders. Since I handed my resignation letter on 6 Jan 2008, I knew my last day was today 31 January 2008. 31 Jan on our yearly master calender was registered as Carrie's last day. We put Birthday, holidays and special event on the calender, so everyone remembers. Once a while, I glanced over the calender and started to count down. Since, early this week, I could hear the time ticking by.

 

This morning when I arrived the office, I was the centre of attention. Everyone know that I was leaving. I have been in the office for almost 3 years. I didn't realised the feeling developed within 3 years could be that deep. We went across the street the the Hunt Restaurant for lunch. Beautiful weather, view and lunch. It was one of the heaviest meal we ever offered to have. My manager offered us the 3 courses meal. For lunch, 3 courses were just too much!!! And the QS started to do some calculation and realised it was cheaper to order separate. We ordered some breads to share, just like family.  I had some salmons and sweet dessert. The lunch was more than 2 hours.

 

We went back to the office and everyone blamed me for making the Thursday afternoon felt like Friday. It was Friday for me because I didn't have to work on Friday. I took some times tidy up my desk. Didn't realised, how much I treated the office as home with grocerries in my drawer. Everyone greet me with good bye. "See you in 1 or 2 years time". I said,"Who knows? I'll get married by then and not work anymore". They ignored the statement still think that I'll come back. The senior collegue was concerned about,"who is fixing my computer when you are not here". My manager said, "what am I gonna do without Carrie? I don't know what is Cos 20". They gave me a good bye card, which they knew I wanted so much.

 

All these words are really sweet. I felt appreciated. I felt my existence in the company, in the team. I knew some how one off them will imitate me when I am not around. "Carrie will probably say, (i'm cold). (I'm good). (Save the trees)."

 

I'll missed you guys too. I'll missed when they say

 

"Carrie, I turned off the air-conditioning just for you".

"Carrie, what's the job number?".

"You are a genius".

"How did you do that".

"Ask Carrie, she knows everything".

etc etc..

I just missed...missed wearing the company T-shirt that looks like crazy clark worker...missed reporting about how we spent our weekends on Monday morning...etc etc.

 

I always feel, being in Australia is just a dream that is about to wake up. But today, I felt my existence here. I felt real. I felt myself. I felt that it was my last day. I felt myself on a real last day. And it was a perfect last day!

 

Officially Unemployed!

Carrie

 

 

 

 

在大学毕业了, 毕业好象失业...

在寻找到底哪里有属於我的天,

在十字路口...鼓起勇气跨了一步, 离开了熟悉的街道...

 

 

迷路..火車叨位去? 我感觉世界末日了...

嘉嘉像蝸牛也是龍捲風...

嘉嘉是可爱型的...我也是可愛女人

嘉嘉千里之外陪我,

 一路向北, 到了那阳光海岸...

找到了, 我的地盘.

 

 

在那晴天, 阳光宅男 四面楚歌...

好象反方向的鐘, 我回到過去...

回到, 三年二班的感觉...

 

 

東風破,带来心雨,

 

 

有嘉嘉的日子, 是甜甜的...

對不起我们要安靜和嘉嘉分裂...

 

我們在成長...

与嘉嘉听这杰倫專輯,范特西到依然范特.我很忙也听了...

是时候回家说,"爸我回來了"... 

 

 

In this life I’m a woman.

In my next life, I’d like to come back as a bear.

 

When you’re a bear, you get to hibernate.

You do nothing but sleep for six months.

I could deal with that.

Before you hibernate, you’re supposed to eat yourself stupid.

I could deal with that too.

When you’re a girl bear,

you birth your children (who are the size of walnuts)

while you’re sleeping and wake to partially grown, cute, cuddly cubs.

I could definitely deal with that.

If you’re momma bear,

everyone knows you mean business.

You swat anyone who bothers your cubs.

If your cubs get out of line, you swat them too.

I could deal with that.

If you’re a bear your mate EXPECTS you to wake up growling.

He EXPECTS that you will have hairy legs and excess body fat.

Yep, gonna be a bear!

My Love Will Get You Home - Christine Glass

Lyrics:

If you wander off too far, my love will get you home.
If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home. Boy, my love will get you home.

If the bright lights blinds your eyes, my love will get you home.
If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home. Boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever feel ashame, my love will get you home.
When there’s only you to blame, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home. Boy, my love will get you home.

 

Why do we communicate? We often hear that people say it is important to communicate but WHY? If the telephone or internet is down for a couple of hours in the office, it may cause chaos. I studied in Business Management during my uni years that communication is important in an organisation. Communication breakdown is the downfall of a system. Communication seems to be important in the corporate world but WHY? It is important because communication is the source of information input and output. That was what I have been taught off. Communicate for information. 

 

After being in the corporate world for a while, I started to question. Communication is important in an organisation but how about us? Us as human. Us as a friend. Us as a family member. Us as someone neighbour. Isn't communication important to us? Believe it or not a communication breakdown causes more harm for us than the organisation. It causes more harm in a relationship than a system. Sound like I am exaggerating? Lets do a test. Why do we communicate?

 

Grow from what you are into what You Desire to be.

LIVE TO LEARN and LEARN TO LIVE

 

GROW a larger concept of EDUCATIONS

GROW in all DIRECTIONS

GROW in your love of LEARNING

GROW in inquisitive MIND

GROW in AWARENESS

GROW in NEW DIRECTIONS

GROW in the DEEPER levels of the human spirit;

COMTEMPLATION, INSIGHT, INTUITION and PRAYER

GROW in WISDOM and UNDERSTANDING

GROW through all your YEARS

ENJOY GROWING 

 

 

 

PHOTOS 

 

Hello to all FI members,

 

I have received a few complaints regarding Sony Image Photo Albums which I used to upload our previous activities' photos. It is a bit slow to either upload or download photos. Therefore, I have temporary accommodate the Friendship International Photos in my private blog, till I find a better site.

 

Please visit  http://www.imagestation.com/mypictures/index.html?view=all  for previous activities photos such:

07.05.07 BBQ

11.11.06 Farewell Party

07.10.06 Mid-Autumn Festival

07.11.06 Korean Lunch

27.10.06 Hawaian Night

 

 

The album on Skirmish has been uploaded in my msn album. The photos on 2nd semester Welcome BBQ will be up soon. PLEASE BE PATIENCE!!!

 

Thank you for your support!!!

 

Regards,

Carrie

 

(PS: to my other regular blog readers, any photo album and Blog labelled FI or Friendship International are general not very interesting for you to read)

 

Stay tune for more real life stories.

 

Courage is jumping of the bridge!

 

 

BEFORE:

I wrote this journal on 25 March 2005:

STANDING ON CROSSROAD

It was Wednesday yesterday. As usually, Wednesday night is Heroes night at 8:30pm. I sat down on the lounge earlier enjoying my dinner while watching the TV. Heroes was not on yet so I was flipping around channels and I end up watching Oprah.

 

There were these bunch of people called the Secret teachers. The information the were trying to deliver was, Law of Attraction as the secret of universe... It was quite deep to understand but after a few example given, the message was visible. They were trying to explain that, nothing in this world is a co-incidence. What happen in the universe is because you have attract it to happen. Basically, you are the person that attract hapinness, sadness, debt, wealth and etc... Still not getting the idea? Example:

 

If you go to the restaurant and you order a pizza. Pizza is what you are attracting. Most of the time you will get a pizza. Because that is what you order. As in life, if you keep on saying that you are poor, you have a horrible family, you have no friends and your manager #*&!#!!! Then that is your order. Basically that is what you will get. You will be a person living in poverty with horrible family, lonely and with #*&!# manager at work. Because that is what you ordered!!!

 

I am not a person that watch much talk show but the example given hit me. As usually I will apply things I learnt into my life. That's why I am a happier person. Since last year, I learnt to live like an Oz. Stress free!!! Many friends back home said, " don't come home, just stay in Aus. Is so stress to work in KL". However I always thought you are the person giving yourself the stress. No one but yourself. Then someone may say"But, but, but you don't know my story....you don't understand my situation"....Hey, I don't want to know your story, get alive!!! If you stick to your history story, you only attracted to your story. LET GO YOUR PASS!!! Forgive and proceed. Let say you only have two hands. You have one hand holding some rotten oranges and the other some rotten apples. Even I would give you some fresh fruits, you would have no hand to take it. BECAUSE...you just love to be the victim. You just want to live in the past. LET GO!!!

 

"Nothing is gonna change unless you are grateful for what you have", (something like this) is another quote mentioned. People tend to concentrate too much on the current problems and forgot the goodness. For example, I am only concentrating on my debts and get depressed about it. I calculate day and night but I just couldn't solve it. Therefore I only attract "DEBT". What I am suppose to do is to attract money. Instead of concentrating and focusing the debt which I can't really solve it, I should focus on ways to make income and enjoy life. Believe it or not, some people say that a person that earn lots of money is happy but I say a happy person will earn money. Don't concentrate on the problems too much but the goodness. Another example is female on diet, tend to focus on body weight. She will only see herself as not pretty. You are suppose to be gratefully that you are healthy and think do you deserve what you have today? You always thing that you don't have enough but you do. Once you are grateful you will only realise that you have more than enough.

 

There's more teaching in the secret but I can't really remember. Interested??? You can check out the website. www.thesecret.tv

 

As usually, I watched, I learnt, I applied and I shared. Some highlights:

1) What you order is what you get

2) Let go the rotten story and past, forgive and you will able to accept the new giving and gifts.

3) Nothing is gonna change without grattitude.

 

Hmmm... when I think back, I do change a lot... I guess the biggest thing I learnt in Australia since last year is to become a happier person. When I was in Uni, I was a poor, poor, poor student. Why? Because I kept on saying that I am poor. I saw myself poor. What I ordered was what I get. I was a poor student all the times in Uni.

 

First year in working society, I moved to a faraway land called Sunshine Coast. I had homesick...so, so sick...I just wanna go home. Holding on the past and homesick on both of my hands I have rejected the kindness of new friends and I have no time to enjoy the sunshine on the coast.

 

Complaint about work and stress, stress, stress was another bad habit of mine till I met another collegue that complaint from big issue in the office till small issue like the toilet paper. Then, I start to learn to be grateful and stop complaining. Then, I couldn't remember since when, I started to work from 8 to 4:30pm. I go for a run after work and life became wonderful and stress free. Even the #!@$ Manager became such a nice manager...Everthing seems wonderful!!!

 

I AM JUST A HAPPIER PERSON NOW!!! 我比從前快樂!!! Yeh!!

 

         

What a night... It was a Monday night and I couldn't sleep. I was not sure what was the reason. Nothing special happened during the day and nothing special happening tomorrow. I JUST couldn't sleep. Usually empty stomach wakes me up, but I was not hungry at all. Why? Why? Why? There was nothing much I could do... I could go to the rooftop and try and wake another person up or go to the kitchen.

 

半 夜 睡 不 著 覺... 只 好 到 厨 房 去 找 食 物 吃....

 

That was my only solution...I am not a very romantic person, I didn't go to the rooftop. Anyway it was not like I was gonna meet Jay on my rooftop. It was pretty cold out there too. I browsed Jay's website...and found  屋頂之爆笑廚房版 ... Pretty similar to mine. Never heard of this version before... I had a good laugh...

 

Original:  

 

Kitchen Version:

27/4/07….

 

I received this message from Debbie this morning “Sad news. Geni has died of cancer. That why she fat. We very sad.”

I have written something about Genie long time ago but it was never posted. Now I use this journal to pay my tribute to her now….. 

04.06.2006 Sunday 10:14pm

Cat and Dog…Making friend with the Dog. Is Dog man’s best friend?

I first met Genie about a month ago. Genie is approximately 40kgs. Huge!!! She was cool as Debbie was there with me. Debbie is Genie’s owner. Genie tried to get a pat from me and I slightly touched her head just to be polite. That was the first sight and not much to comment. You need more time to understand a person. So does a dog.

On Friday the 2 June 2006, I moved into the new family with mother, sons, a cat and a dog. I am not so much a cat person. They just think they are cute. So they just walk around and look pretty and lazy and just want to be cuddle.

The night before Debbie told me that no one would be in during the time I would moved in. Genie would be away in the garden. I came in on Friday late morning. First thing I need to do was to get my laundry done. Therefore I went to the court yard to check if there was any cloth line. Genie was there. She stared at me and barked. She ran after me. I ran back into the house and locked the door. For a 40kgs dog, she could run. Lucky not fast enough or else she could have got me! She continued barking for minutes. But not to blame, that was just her job. Second sight, she was a dog that does her duty.

I was scared. I have hips of experience chasing by the dogs. Not good. And after that the cat, Bear. He or she…not sure. It was in the house while I was unpacking. It just followed me. It was trying to lead me to the kitchen to get some foods. That’s the cat!!! I wonder if I ever gonna like the cat. Maybe I am just not the animal type of person.

On Saturday the moving process continues. Genie sniffed at me. Maybe trying to smell and recognise me. Hope that I won’t be stranger anymore. She doesn’t need to like me but at least stop barking at me.

Tonight, I went out and got back around 9pm. Debbie was asleep. When I opened the garage roller, I heard Genie barking again. I dared not open the entry door from garage. However Debbie woke up and calmed Genie and took her into the room.

I was filling up so water in the kitchen, Genie came out and went to her spot for a drink. We were cool. We could share the space, ‘you drink your water and I’ll drink mine’. Then I went to the toilet. While I was in the toilet, I heard some noises, ‘Oh no she must be outside! Do I have to share the toilet with her? She just did like me and wanna checked me?’. I gently opened the door, she sat there and stared at me. I could not stay in the toilet for long. I took a deep breath and went out. But the 40kgs dog was blocking the door way. I lightly patted her. She was cool and I thought we were cool. I went into the bath. Before I washed my hand, I took another peeked outside. She was still there. I gotto face her. I got to make friend or else it will be hard for me to continue the stay in this place. I went out and lead her to her sleeping spot. I got her  laid down. I massaged her and tried to put her to sleep. I guessed we are friends now.

I guess I am just like her. Looks strong yet wish to be cuddled. Cat is different. It looks weaker and tend to get more attention. I understood why dog could be man best friend. It is not because dog understand human but we are pretty much the same. We earned for what we eat. We needs friends, attentions and love. Genie, I’ll try to be a better friend.  

27/4/06….

I am gonna miss you. Hope that I have been a good fren of yours during my stay. U certainly cheers some of my days…Will miss you….!!!!!

Luv,

Carrie

21 April 2007, Saturday

 

It has been a lazy Saturday. Lazy not because I have nothing to do, but refuse to do it. On the Saturday afternoon, I start building castle in the air again... Some people say that day dreaming is a waste of time. BUt as for me sometimes it is good to have your mind out of the reality. A little of dream won't harm.

 

What I dreamt today was travelling around the world. Just imagine how tiny a human being are compare to the world. I was thinking the wonders of the world. Seriously, many people know that there is a list of seven wonders of the world but not many can name them. And the list consist of building and natural.   

 

Since I am already wasting my time, why not google it. Suprisingly there are more than 7 lists of 7 wonders. There are Seven wonders of the ancient world, medieval mind, natural, under water, modern wold,  forgotten natural wonders, forgotten modern wonders and etc...Below are the links to some information. Suprisingly, I been to a couple of places on the list. Great China Wall, Great Barrier Reef (Queensland), Sydney Opera House and and and (SURPRISE!!! Petronas Tower!!!). Guess what category our Petronas Tower in??? We are in the Seven Forgotten Modern Building of the World... 

 

 

 

The information woke me up from my day dreaming. I once hope to go to all the seven wonders. That was because I did not know what were the wonders. Now, I know what are the wonders and I said, forget it... not happening. And the list will keep on growing.

 

Travel has become part of my life. 2006 has been a great year...Some review of the year:

 

Happy Holiday in Malaysia. Haven't been home for 3 years. Six weeks wasn't enough to finish my food tour. Been to some of the places in Malaysia like, Penang, Kuala Terrenganu and Genting Highland.

 

My tour Guide in Penang was Wei Wei. Penang food nice and cheap. Kuala Terrenganu, my 1/4 kampung. Cousins everywhere, everywhere also relative... I don't know them but they know my Mum and Dad. The Kepok, lemang, nasi dagang and etc were the best part. Cathy visited us, we went to some of the tourist places that we haven't been. Amazingly Camy knew all this places like the batik factory, chocalate factory and etc. We went to genting and due to the aging, there was not much exictment anymore. Where else did I go??? KLCC, Tesco, Petaling Street and Bird Park (nope.. never been to bird park). Gosh!!! I was a tourist....

 

Back to Sunshine Coast...Life was back to the old routine... Thru and flo Sunshine Coast, Brisbane and Gold Coast. Went to Gold Coast during Easter, Christmas, Sophia's Birthday and lots of other times (approximately 4-5 times??). Also been to Byron Bay during Shi Pey visit. Took lot's of photos. Nice photos!!!

 

May, I took a break off during my birthday. Ee Lee, Chui Lian and I went to Sydney... It was the most relaxing trip. No plan, no rush but lots of fun. I called this holiday. Thank you to Esther and Vincent for being our tour guides. Also Jason, Chui Lian's special trip planner. Sorry man, most of the place he suggested, we couldn't find it. Took some photos but not a lot. Syney ppl were not very friendly. They were too busy to stop by.

 

Some other places were like Maleny and Hervey Bay. However it was not for holiday but work... Company didn't pay me to travel.

 

Mmm...Went to some natura place like the beach, Buderim's Falls and Montville. Montville was very English style.. Very nice small little town. It was a special trip for Sheryl, Ricle, Jenny and Jeff.

 

New year Eve's in Melbourne with Karen. Just closing the year watching fireworks from Melbourne Dockside. Hang around with Gloria in the Melbourne City. Met up a few friends like Say Lee and Julie.

 

..........................

 

Pretty much that's all. Just around Malaysia and Australia in 2006. In 2007, I wanna go to Malaysia, Hong Kong, Macau, New Zealand, Alice Spring and etc. If I have the money of cource I wanna go to more places. The possible one in the next few years will be, Taiwan, Japan, Korea, Indonesia, Thailand, Singapore, China, Vietnam, Cambodia....

 

 

 

Looking forward for the way

People are always looking forward for the way that they are walking.

Some people like to walk the way they already knew.

Some people like to walk the way which had been discovered.

This people like to follow the footsteps of others as it is a human nature.

People walk toward the way which they sense the security.

However some people like to discover their own ways.

They may need not only walk but run, swim or even fly.

This people do things their way.

And I am one of them.

I used to follow others footsteps as I was lack of security, faith, courage, wisdom and most of all the strength and power.

However, I felt the strength and power now. I shall have faith in myself and discover my own way even I have climb the highest mountain or cross a million oceans. Even now, I believe I can fly. When I reached the way, I shall call it the Carrie’s way as I did it my way!!! So I am looking forward for the way, the Carrie’s way.

   If I have to walk, I'll walk. If I have to run, I'll run.

   If I have to swim, I'll swim

   If I have to climb, I'll climb

   If I have to fly, I'll fly

(P/S: Dedicated to those who had helped me in reaching my way. Thank you. You can never do anything alone and you will never be alone.)

According to Oxford Dictionary, there are many definition of love:

1) Warm liking or affection, eg: a mother’s love, love of one’s country

2) Sexual affection or passion, eg: marry for love and not money

3) Religion love, eg: God’s benevolence towards mankind

4) Strong liking for sth, eg: a love of learning

5) Person who is loved, eg: Take care my love

6) Delightful person or thing, eg: Isn’t this hat a perfect love?

7) Address used by man to woman or vice verse, eg: Mind your head, love!

8) In tennis, no score, eg: the score in the game is thirty-love

9) Be in love, eg: I am madly in love

etc……etc……..

However for me the definition of love is simpler. Love in a relationship of man to woman, woman to man, man to man, woman to woman and etc. Love is in a relationship, friendship, sistership, brothership and etc. After all everyone see a different angle of the definition.

Kiss has always be the magical cure in the fairy tales. The magical kiss cured the Sleeping Beauty, Snow White but not the Princes Fiona from Shrek. WHY? Princes Fiona saw the different angle of her love. Being an Ogre and live happily ever after. So please to see the love in different angles…… The happiness is waiting.

So people out there, the photo I had presented is just a photo taken with an unusual angle. NO CONTACT AT ALL……. I did not have the magical kiss but the LOVE will always be there. (Dedicated to my beloved Sis)